My Words Came Against Me Like A Sharp knife.

The thing is that, some times we screwed up big time. It hurts. I could stop my blog post right here and everybody would just understand what I said, because everybody also screwed up big time as well. We could say we are just humans, little creatures, fragile like the flowers that die in the fields........

Hummmmmmmm! .............................................

I am feeling that I am spinning around…I will start this text over but leaving everybody out of this:

The thing is that, some times, I screwed up big times and it hurts a lot.  I have this impression that I will never learn important lessons to exercise wisdom. ….oh!!! if I could stop my words before it brings destruction!... My words came against me like a sharp knife to get me; what upsets me the most is the fact that, this horrible agent of destruction came from my very own mouth.

 Today has been so far a hard day. It is 4:21 California time, and I am overwhelmed with life since I opened my eyes in the morning…to make things worse there was no sun today. It was a dark raining day to the point to wet people’s soul.

The reason for this grieving is that I said something in the middle of the morning that made me look like a clown and I hated it. The situation was ridiculous to my eyes. I know better, I have better judgment than that, but for some reason I let mediocrity came from nowhere and punch me right on my face……………

I want stop to write right now…I am upset. It will be easier do not think about this and move on, but I will keep going, I want to digest the bitterness of the occasion to see if I can learn something from it……………..no focus………………………………………anguish…………………………………

…………………I stopped right here and went to the hot tube…..prayed there for long time; even cried before the Lord…I cried out for wisdom. He said Himself that if we ask for wisdom He will give us without finding fault….that means He will not judge or throw things on my face because earlier today I spoke like a fool. Therefore, thinking about that I left everything in His feet asking for wisdom…I also forgave me and comforted my heart….I will not let this knocked me down. I will learn…I will be vigilant….and I will stop this suffering right now………………………..ufa……………

…………..it is one day at the time right? I am glad today is over.

Proverbs 6:2
you have been trapped by what you said, ensnared by the words of your mouth.

Proverbs 18:6
The lips of fools bring them strife, and their mouths invite a beating.

Ecclesiastes 2:13
I saw that wisdom is better than folly, just as light is better than darkness.

Ecclesiastes 7:23
All this I tested by wisdom and I said, “I am determined to be wise”— but this was beyond me.

James 1:5
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.