Five Hours Had Passed

6/6/2012
So. Five hours has passed today already and I did not do anything. I went back and forth in the studio and spread books and paintings all around. I took a charcoal and tried to call some birds on a blue turquoise covered with a light yellow background that I have being working on for two weeks now….I had the impression that I saw three birds and I tried them in white…nothing... I went then to organize my cabinet and found more books, lots of material that could be in  used immediately and some cards… I came back to the table covered with the open books's joy..found a delicious orange humming bird flying...  went to get all the oil painting material... answered a phone call and lost forty more minutes. I did this, I did that and nothing came about…
My well is empty, that is what it is. I cannot paint, because I am not settled. I am overwhelmed with life in these modern days. I feel sorry for my poor mind which cannot rest enough. My sleep patterns are horrible. I drink too much caffeine. There is no peace….Ok! Right now I want to leave this blogging behind and just jump for the next thing…..The afternoon is coming down gently. I will add some music to the occasion and try to comfort myself, I will spend some time listening to me…..painting…..drink more water and paint...pampering my inner child.